Dirty Tricks

So, Dillon and his family went skydiving this past Saturday in Utah. He's been wanting to go for a really long time, so I was super excited, but that didn't stop me from being anxious. And when I say anxious, it was more like I was freaking out inside for the ENTIRE day. Anyway, they all ended up having a great time, even his mom jumped! Which is awesome, and apparently she loved it. Who knew? Then when he called me he decided to act like someone crying and say that "Dillon didn't make it." I could have slapped him. I started to cry haha does that tell you how nerve racking it was for me?

He was the first to jump!

Pictures...

Top of Garn's Peak... See the Tetons in the background?! It was beautiful up there!

Driving down the road and Bourbon decided he was sleepy haha

At the top of Garn's Peak

Pic from the first ride this summer

In A Nutshell

Okay, so it's been quite awhile. Where to begin....?

A couple of weeks ago I made my first trip home since Dillon has been gone. We were able to go camping with his family in Alpine. It was really a lot of fun. Unfortunately they had been camping for a few days before we got there, so we only stayed one night, and there were only 4 of us and 2 kids that actually stayed that night. However, we had lots of fun sitting around the fire, getting rained and snowed on and just enjoying each other's company. 

We also went on a ride on the dirtbikes. It was my first in a really long time, and in all honesty, I totally sucked. I cried. In front of Dillon's brothers. Haha it was embarrassing and frustrating and completely discouraging, but eventually I made it back to camp and that was that. 

This past weekend I was able to go home again, and we took a ride up around Heise with Dillon's best friend Brad and his girlfriend Hailey. Again, I sucked, but I had a really good time, as always. Hopefully the more I go the better I will get. However, I don't have my own bike so that probably won't happen. I don't want to become a burden to Dillon's mom for always borrowing from her. I did wreck a few times, one really good one. I scraped up my arm and bruised my shin, but I made it ;) 

This week I'm back in Boise for work and of course, I miss him </3. Oh well. This too shall pass... or not. Anyway, I've been working on training for an internship that I'm doing this fall at the Coalition Against Sexual and Domestic Violence. So far it's been a really good experience. I can't complain. There are about 5 of us in the group and it's just enough. 

(Pictures won't post right now because I have awesome internet that always (never) works. So those will be coming up soon!)

I Swear

I am still alive, and I will be posting something new in the next day... I've just been too lazy to do so recently.

Thinking too much

Feeling kind of... 

uncertain. uneasy. USED. misunderstood. uncomfortable. anxious. troubled.

The Little Things

First things first, Dillon sent me flowers!!! They are so beautiful. He's is such a sweetheart and I am so lucky to have him. Even when he isn't here, he always knows just how to make my days so much better. I love you. 

He also bought himself a new dirt bike, which I'm actually really happy about. At first I couldn't really wrap my head around why he would sell the one he had and immediately buy another. I felt like he needed to save the money he was making and it was unnecessary. But, the more I thought about it, the more I realized that riding is a part of Dillon. It's in his blood. It's who he is. I would never take that away from him. How selfish? So, yay for new bikes! (oh, and he LOVES it :))

Bourbon is still happily swimming, and getting better everyday! I love it! It's so nice on a hot day to go play in the water and know that he really will get in this time. So fun. 

Most importantly, I GET TO SEE MY LOVE IN 4 DAYS!!!! And I am excited beyond belief. We are going camping with his family for the weekend, which should be a fun time. Really though, I'm just excited about kissing him ;)

Oh my

Do you ever just have those days where nothing is going your way? Or so it seems. I have a LOT of really good things going for me, and a lot of amazing people in my life, but right now, most of them aren't here. And they won't be here for  awhile, if at all. And I can't help but think about everything BUT the good things. So today is hard. It's not fun, it's not happy, and it's not easy. But, tomorrow is a new day, and everything is going to be just fine.