Do you ever just have those days where nothing is going your way? Or so it seems. I have a LOT of really good things going for me, and a lot of amazing people in my life, but right now, most of them aren't here. And they won't be here for awhile, if at all. And I can't help but think about everything BUT the good things. So today is hard. It's not fun, it's not happy, and it's not easy. But, tomorrow is a new day, and everything is going to be just fine.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Today was my first day off of work in about 14 days, so I was super excited when I woke up at 7 am. Except not. It's pretty much torture to wake up so early when you can actually "sleep in" for once! I would have taken even 8:30... Oh well. Crystal and I got up and went for a really nice run. The weather was beautiful! Not too hot *yet* and not too cold. Of course Bourbon was just happy to be out of the house. Speaking of Bourbon....
The past 2 days Bourbon has figured out how to get out of his kennel once we leave. The first day he had climbed on top of the table and knocked over a container of markers, steal an orange from the kitchen counter, chew up the corner of a book I am currently reading, chewed up a box of tea, and pooped in his freshly clean kennel. Needless to say I was shocked. He hasn't done this before. And it was hard to even be upset when he looks at me with those puppy dog eyes and is like, "Hey mom! I'm so glad you're home! Let's play!"
The second day he didn't do much damage, however I still cannot for the life of my figure out how he's getting out! I've pulled on the door of the kennel and I can't even pull it off, so he must have a trick. I'm not sure of the solution, all I know is I better figure it out quick because he can't keep chewing and eating things.
On a lighter note, today we were able to go to the dog park for about 2 hours and play in the sunshine and water. Actually, it was a little more overcast, but my albino self got pretty dang red. BOURBON SWAM! Like literally swam. I was so ecstatic! Proudest mommy ever! I even took pictures.
9 days until I get to see my love! I can't wait. I really hope the next week goes by so super fast, and then slows WAY down when I get to Idaho Falls. No amount of time could ever be enough for me to spend with that boy. He's got my whole heart and I just can't get enough of him!
He finally moved into an apartment, which he calls "ghetto". He says it's never been cleaned, and the walls are too white. He's semi-crazy, but it's fine because I still love him. And miss him entirely more than he could ever imagine. But no crying this week! Be proud babe, be so proud <3
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Today is Day 8, and I'm doing better. I'm such a "wimp", as Dillon would so kindly put it. I cried on Friday. Boo. He called me to tell me he was going out of town to go camping with all of his friends and their friends, etc. And he might not have service until Sunday. Say whaaaat??? No talking to my best friend for 2 DAYS?! (Okay, it's really not that long, but I freaked.) I cried while I was on the phone with him, but denied it anyway. Then sobbed when we hung up. Sometimes I can't help but feel jealous that all these people get to spend the summer with him, while I'm here in Boise without him. So unfair. But so OK. I'm trying to understand.
Anyway, he ended up having service, to my suprise. And I got to speak with him much more than I expected. He took a dirt bike ride in the rain and snow apparently, which according to him was the "worst ride ever." Dang. Now he's home and he's found an apartment FINALLY, so he doesn't have to commute anymore. Nice.
My mom came into town today! Such a nice surprise. We had lunch at Cheesecake Factory, which was great, and even shared a piece of Snicker's Cheesecake. Yum.
Happy Sunday guys!
p.s.- We had Peach Bellini's with our dinner... :)
Friday, May 25, 2012
Well, today is Dillon's 21st birthday!!! He could hardly wait for it to come, and now it's here and holy, time flies doesn't it? I'm so sad I have to miss out on it because 1. I'm here, and 2. He's there. But I hope he knows how much I've been thinking about him and hope he has the best day. Happy birthday, love.
I decided to take out my extensions for the summer. They are so hot and obnoxious and I don't see the point in keeping them when they are just so burdensome. Of course, I saved them and will definitely have them put back in when the weather turns cold again. But for now, this is me :)
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Well, so far so good. I haven't cried since Sunday. Honest! I haven't. And I think that's a pretty big accomplishment! Dillon and I talk on the phone every night before we go to bed, and of course we text on occasion. Usually he's so busy with work though I typically don't hear from him until closer to 8 pm. Which is okay, because it teaches me patience. And Heaven knows I could use some of that.
Update on Dill:
He is still working on finding a place to stay in Ashton, but last night he was filling out an application for a cheap apartment that he was able to fine. Praying that it works out for him. He has been so stressed, and a girl can only comfort so much over the phone.
So at this point, he gets up at 4 am in order to leave Idaho Falls by 5 am, to make it to the safety meeting at 630 am. This morning he was dragging, but low and behold he got his cup o' joe and all was well. The rest of the day is pretty much a mystery to me. He tells me that they do something different every day. One day he was looking at specs and something to do with concrete, the other he was calling distributors and suppliers. He said he's the youngest one there, the next closest in age being around 30. He's also the only intern, so he's making sure to soak up as much information and expertise as he can.
All in all he's loving it. I sure do miss him here in Boise though. He texted me a picture today and told me they were "baby moosen" (moose). I'm pretty sure he made that word up, and I love him all the same <3
As for Bourbon & I:
We have been going on a nightly run, as well as hitting up the dog park. B has decided that he rather enjoys the water and has learned to toss his own tennis ball into the water and fetch it. Yesterday though we had the unfortunate mishap of sinking a tennis ball. Don't ask me how it happened because I don't know. We also managed to sink a frisbee. It floated at first, but sunk real quick and I was NOT about to jump in the lake and get it. (Sidenote: Bourbon refuses to actually swim, he will only go neck deep, hence why the frisbee was lost. I tried to get him to jump in the deep part and he just wasn't having it.)
I've been trying to stay busy with work and exercise. Speaking of which, does anyone have any workouts that they just love that I could try? I love running, cycling, lifting weights, etc. I just need some new ideas to switch it up a little every now and then.
I'm also volunteering again at the Coalition Against Sexual and Domestic Violence. I really love it. I'm hoping for an internship this fall as well.
Anyway, here's to Day 3! We're doing it!
Sunday, May 20, 2012
So, this summer, Dillon was blessed with the chance to take part in an internship with the construction company of his dreams. They sent him to Ashton, ID, and he left yesterday. This summer I am going to be posting updates about me, him, Bourbon, and just us in general. Sometimes I can promise you the posts will be sad, but sometimes they will be happy too. This will just be a place for me to express my struggles and triumphs as we work on keeping our relationship alive and thriving from a distance.
I had such a hard time yesterday! I told myself to hold in the tears until after he drove out of the parking lot of the restaurant we had our last (for awhile) date at. Baja Fresh. Romantic, eh? Nonetheless, I started balling halfway through lunch and couldn't stop for 3 more hours.
I know that it may seem odd or over the top to some of you, but if you've ever loved someone so much that it's hard to say goodbye, you understand. Dillon is my very best friend, my lover, and the very best puppy daddy I could ask for. I miss him every second. Literally. I know it will get easier as the time goes by, and really, I get to see him in 3 weeks I'm hoping. But still, to go from spending everyday together to just hearing each other's voices is hard.
My Dil is so sweet to me though. Before he left he told me "I love you, babe. I'm not going anywhere, I'm still right here."
I love you too, Dilly Bar <3 Missing you everyday.